Why...

Well... I now know for certain that one of the two jobs I was trying to get did not go to me. Two gentlemen here at work are officially transferring to the IT department and I am not one of them.
I really don't understand why I can't seem to get ahead in this world but it has become undeniably clear that I'm not meant to succeed.

Money for Nothing, Checks for Free

...I wish!!!

I paid bills yesterday... I'm thankful that I was able to work enough overtime to do so but, at the same time, I have to wonder why, exactly, I should have to kill myself just to survive. I'm not sure how I'll pay the next round o' bills that I will have to take care of mid month because work has slowed down and I don't know if OT will be available.

Apparently, both of the jobs I applied for last month have long-since been taken by others. I never got a call on either position. I'm not sure what it is I'm doing incorrectly but I'm obviously not getting it right...

On the positive side of things, though I keep dreaming about cigarettes, I'm clean and haven't smoked for five weeks as of yesterday. I'm pretty proud of this achievement.and I look forward to the time when I can afford to get my new bicycle out of Wal Mart layaway and start getting healthy again.

Anyway, I guess that's it for now.